The common wisdom is that you need to forgive an injustice from another. If that means “to grant a free pardon for or remission of (an offense, debt, etc.)”1 then I am not in favor of it. I’m in favor of a just response. Admittedly, that is more challenging. Often overlooked by those seeking justice is the internal emotional work that needs to be done to identify and implement a just response.
The first part of this internal work is to settle your emotions sufficiently, so that you can gain total objectivity about the situation. It’s important to make choices with full clarity of the consequences for you as well as the other. In the grip of anger, you could easily take an action that further damages yourself and those you love, multiplying the destruction of the original injustice. This is why simply distancing oneself is so often the just response to an injustice.
The second part of the internal work is finding emotional closure, apart from any action you take, so that that the injustice does not weigh on your mind, distract you from your purpose, and continue to trigger suffering. That is a total waste of energy, which also multiplies the destruction. How unjust is that?
A book which equated “forgiveness” with this internal work of justice expressed these ideas eloquently. The author wrote: “We must forgive those who we feel have wronged us, not because they deserve to be forgiven, but because we love ourselves so much we don’t want to keep paying for the injustice.” And later: “When someone can touch what used to be a wound and it no longer hurts you, then you know you have truly forgiven.” He said it is not right for you to suffer many times for the original injustice, and then went on to discuss the same issue with respect to “forgiving” oneself.2
I was struck after reading these passages that although I have worked hard to reach emotional closure regarding injustices from others,3 I hadn’t done the same for some of my own past mistakes. Perhaps you, too, have incidents from many years ago that make you cringe when you think of them. It had not occurred to me that these could and should be put to rest by an internal process.
I decided to create one. I listed some steps, based on what I knew about getting closure on an injustice. I promptly went through them to try to put to bed some embarrassing incidents from my youth that still made me cringe. In the process, I added two more steps.
Here is the final process, to be used with “thinking on paper”:4
- Describe my mistake.
- Describe the negative consequences of my mistake.
- If still needed, mourn the losses caused by my mistake.
- With generosity toward myself, identify the rational value that I was attempting to gain. This was a distorted attempt to achieve what value?
- What did I learn from this mistake?
- What value can I pursue more effectively now, as a result of having made this mistake and learned from it?
- Celebrate. Embrace myself for having learned from this situation.
- If another person was involved, work out in what way I am sorry for the person, or grateful to him/her. Imagine a conversation about it with him/her.
- If appropriate, communicate my apology or gratitude to the other person.
In answering the questions, I discovered that I had not already learned from these incidents.
I can see why not. When they occurred, I did not know how to introspect my emotions. I did not know how to systematically identify everything that contributed to a negative result. I did not know how to identify the deep rational values at stake. As a result, I did not learn anything from these incidents other than, “don’t do that again.”
Until I did this exercise, I did not realize that these incidents still made me cringe because I had unfinished business with them. As a valuer, I needed to understand these incidents more deeply.
By working out the answers to these questions, my feelings about these incidents changed overnight. One of them has finally settled to sadness. The rest now seem a little humorous. I expect that the other people were flummoxed by my behavior, and I am left smiling and shaking my head.
With 20:20 hindsight, I see this is just another concretization of the pervasive need to introspect one’s emotions. Accepting facts means accepting your negative emotions about the fact. That is necessary, especially when the negative facts concern yourself.
P.S. Sometimes people get caught in the first step in a guilt loop. I write about how to get out of a guilt loop in another article.
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2. The Four Agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz. Though I found this book stimulating, I don’t recommend it. I recommend only those books I judge to be essentially true and clear, as opposed to those requiring philosophical detection, translation into a cognitive context, and other detailed analysis.
4. I teach “thinking on paper” in my freebie: Multiply the Power of Thought.